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[May. 14th, 2009|12:58 am] |
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I always knew being in school for something I didn't love was going to be hard, I just never thought it would be so... soul-crushing.
I have one last final in the morning, but I just can't bring myself to study. "It's not for forever," I'm thinking, trying to motivate myself. "This is for the future." But, dear God, can I make it?
I don't want this. |
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[Apr. 10th, 2009|11:44 pm] |
I got guinea pigs. They are work.
AGH!!! |
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| Second Exam Week... |
[Oct. 20th, 2008|10:30 am] |
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Has started out almost as bad as the first exam week. Here I am thinking, "Okay, I didn't study hard enough last time, but this time, I am SO passing." Yeah... That may not be happening. And that's only the one exam. I still have MedChem. Oh Lord, it's MedChem that I already know I'm going to bomb no matter how much I study. Ah, crap. And Tox. Only slight consolation: Patho. Maybe. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2008|05:42 pm] |
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Exam week kicked my ass. It kicked.my.ass |
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| Unfortunately... |
[Sep. 26th, 2008|01:24 pm] |
There happened to be a leak in the air conditioner and all the freon was gone. It did not get fixed until Wednesdy. So, that was, what, 12 days sleeping without AC? I HATED IT!!!
*Big breath* Then yesterday, I come home, cleaning up a bit and getting ready for a nap, and the lights flicker off! I'm all WTF?!?! There's still some 400k people still without electricity and you want to take away mine?
Well, since Ike totally disrupted my exam week at school, it's been to moved to next week, while we're learning material for the next round of exams, which will be two weeks thereafter. Yay. That's not really a problem, since all exams are going to be pretty much cumulative any way. The one thing I do have a problem with is Med Chem. I have learned nothing because the first exam will test on knowledge that "should have" been acquired prior to joining the program. And there's been no review of these concepts from like, 3 years ago. Nice. So basically, I have to go find all my materials from all my chemistry classes and study them.
Remember that Formative Exam? Well, I totally should have studied. Turns out that if you don't get an overall passing score of 70 you have to be remediated in your weakest subjects (Which for me, is Chem). DAMNIT!! I made a 66 or something. If I had studied, I totally would have passed, but nooooooo, here I was under the impression that the results of this exam would be more diagnostic than anything and not used to penalize. Ugh.
Oh, I ordered this computer desk/armoire with a drop down table. It came during the week of no electricity, so not only was I huffing and puffing these seriously heavy boxes upstairs, but I had to put it all together, by hand, with only sunlight to see by, in freaking heat!! So many screws... |
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| I'm so happy.... |
[Sep. 21st, 2008|04:26 pm] |
SO Happy. So happy I'm about to cry!
At approximately 2:00 am on Saturday, September 13, 2008, the power went out in my house and pretty much entire neighborhood. At approximately 4:15 pm, today, Sunday, September 21, 2008, IT HAS COME BACK!
Am I sorry that almost one million people are still without electricity? Yes. But ya know what? I'm no longer one of them!!
I am SO happy!!! |
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| To All of You |
[Sep. 11th, 2008|10:52 pm] |
Who remember...
...the lives lost.
...the lives sacrificed.
...the pain that lives on.
...the strength it has fostered.
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Do you remember what you were doing when it happened? I was a 15 year old 10th grader in Latin class. We were watching the tv for our daily does of news exposure and suddenly there were these incomprehensible images and information. I thought it was all an awful joke.
I go home later that day and my mom tells me that my sister had called her to ask if our uncle was okay. "Why would he not be okay?" mom told my sister. "Because he works at the Pentagon." "OH! I'll call you back-- " Apparently, both mom and I had brain farts and forgot that, yes, Uncle does work in the Pentagon. After finding out he was safe, the little episode brings a little bit of humor and lightness to the day and I'm thankful for that. I hope, in these past years, others have found a bit of joy in a day that was full of so much sorrow. |
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| Formulations!! |
[Sep. 11th, 2008|10:27 pm] |
We're starting to actually make stuff in lab. Kinda rusty, but eventually figured everything out and made: calamine lotion, kaopectate, and a niacin suspension. Compounding is fun, but it can get so complicated... I'm pretty sure I'm just going to stop at PharmD, but the idea of specialization is kinda interesting. I really only want to do community pharmacy because there's much more patient interaction, but, oh, I don't know! Once you're a doctor, you're a doctor, so going for extra schooling on top of the standard clinical experience... I don't know if I can stand too many more years of school!!
I'm gonna be a doctor. Hee. Well, in about three more years that is. I get through this year, pass the formative, get through the third professional year, pass the summative, and then go on a year of experiential training and that'll be enough to have a degree as a clinical pharmacist. But then there's the board. Well, if I was good enough to get the degree, then the state board shouldn't be too hard.
Hurricane Ike is a big issue right now. Classes are canceled tomorrow and basically the city of Houston is closed. Even though we live pretty far northwest, there are still lots of concerns. Most forecasts compare Ike to Alicia of '83, but seeing as I wasn't yet born and my parents were living in Ohio, we don't really know what to expect. Hopefully the electricity doesn't die out, because I have exams next week and I need to study. Dad was saying there was a chance of being powerless for up to ten days. (The horror!) We shall see how it goes. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2008|11:22 pm] |
Apparently I'm a word nerd.
How Well Do You Know the English Language?
Your result for The Commonly Confused Words Test... English GeniusYou scored 100% Beginner, 100% Intermediate, 100% Advanced, and 80% Expert! You did so extremely well, even I can't find a word to describe your excellence! You have the uncommon intelligence necessary to understand things that most people don't. You have an extensive vocabulary, and you're not afraid to use it properly! Way to go! Take The Commonly Confused Words Test at HelloQuizzy |
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[Aug. 24th, 2008|03:27 am] |
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zOmg! My heart rate's totally elevated and my stomach hurts from all the anticipation. How do sports fans deal with it?! Thank GOD it's over! Woohoo! Spain was reeeeaaaallly close to kicking our collective asses, they were good, but US is better! Hee. |
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| Thank You Men's Gymnastics!!! |
[Aug. 15th, 2008|01:34 am] |
Heh. Have been watching quite a bit of the Olympics this week and, thanks to the gorgeous bodies in men's gymnastics, my Zac Efron thing has toned itself down substantially. Yes, am being totally superficial, but why not enjoy the aesthetics of it all, considering I can't actually get to know them? I'm rationalizing, but I think it's still okay as long as appearances are never valued greater than character depth.
Now, then. Onto the bodies. Can you say, "Yum?" All muscley and sinewy and really great asses. Even the more slender ones I find pretty hot. I don't find swimmer's bodies' hot. The form and general lack thereof kinda turns me off, but I understand it's desirable and can appreciate the athletic skill it.
I watched synchronized diving for the first time. That was kinda interesting. I hate diving. My dad showed me how when I was around 10 and I totally flopped. The pain really had me chickening out, so I've never dived since then. Watched women's fencing and could not keep up. Interesting, but kinda dizzying. |
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| I'm Home |
[Aug. 2nd, 2008|05:11 pm] |
Yes, I survived the "5 hour, should have been 4 hour, looked like 3.5 hour" drive from Dallas to Houston without incident. Well, that's not true. My phone went wonky so I had to reset it by taking out the sim card, which I promptly dropped beneath the seat and couldn't find. I was in the middle of talking to my mom, who was perhaps 10 miles behind me, and knew she'd be freaking out, so I pulled over. (By this point I'd hit traffic. Yay.) Since I was pulled over on the right, I couldn't actually get out of the car to crouch down and look for the card and gave up after 10 minutes of awkard maneuvering and finally got to the house around 7pm, at which point my panicked mother (who was afraid of my driving a long distance for the first time on a night of no sleep) looked at me wild eyed and said she almost called the cops. All in all, not a problem.
In regards of news of a certain actress' arrest, I will be reserving comments until details are known. |
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[Jul. 28th, 2008|02:56 am] |
Yes, I'm boring. Get the fuck over it.
Now that that's over... |
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| Phew! |
[Jul. 27th, 2008|01:06 am] |
No mean comments for my video! Rather, no comments at all, heh. But I'd like to take this as a positive sign of people not hating it and being too ambivalent to comment as opposed to not liking it and being ambivalent. (Where is this half-full person coming from?!)
In any case, this has bolstered up enough confidence for me to post another clip, considerably longer in length and vocal difficulty called, "Amarilli, mia bella" by Giulio Caccini. It's kinda funny because this is a pretty well-known piece in singing communities, but the version most often used was edited by an Alessandro Parisotti in 1885. In his version, he changes the lyrics Prendi questo mio strale ("Take my arrow") to a less graphic line Dubitar non ti vale ("To doubt does not avail you"). Read the following lyrics and idiomatic translation to get the feeling of Caccini's intent.
Amarilli, mia bella
(Amaryllis, my beautiful one)
Non credi, o del mio cor dolce desio,
(Do you not believe, O my heart's desire,)
D'esser tu l'amour mio?
(That you are my beloved?)
Credilo pur, e se timor t'assale,
(Believe it nevertheless, and if fear assails you)
Prendi questo mio strale,
(Take this arrow)
Aprimi il petto e vedrai scritto il core:
(Open my bosom, and you will see written on my heart)
Amarilli e il mio amore
("Amaryllis is my love")
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[Jul. 25th, 2008|08:52 pm] |
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A-hem. Uh. Hi. I recorded myself singing some tunes a capella. I posted one on YouTube for "Once Upon A Dream" from Disney's Sleeping Beauty. Am seriously terrified. Million thoughts running through my head, foremost "OMG, delete it, delete it, DELETE IT before anyone sees it and says how ugly I am or how crappy my voice is!" But, uh, until I no longer have any resolve or confidence and totally remove any last vestiges of its existence, here it is!
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| Hairspray News! |
[Jul. 24th, 2008|02:19 am] |
There's work being done on a sequel to Hairspray, tentatively set for release in early 2010! If they get Zac Efron and Nikki Blonsky and the rest of the cast to reprise... Just... Yay! (I could live with a different Edna.)
Although... there is the chance that my crush on Zac Efron will be over by then. But Nikki Blonsky is just too adorable as Tracy Turnblad and I totally <3 the Trink.
Speaking of Zac Efron, this "crush" is getting on my nerves. I'm sure it's perfectly healthy and normal, but all the same, I'd really rather not. Sure he's cute and scores major points for not having a flashy car (He drives an Audi. How non-pretentious is that?), and doesn't seem like a media whore. And, he can sing. Hell, that's the big thing there. I'm a sucker for good-looking singers. When I saw the Phantom of The Opera Vegas Spectacular I totally wanted to jump the guy who played Raoul. (And the one who played him in the film; Patrick Wilson!) I think that's my button. Vocal ability. Now that I think about it, I was really attracted to the guys in my high school choir whose voices I liked. (Although those never developed into crushes... Hmm.)
Had something else to talk about, but got totally distracted by the Hairspray news. |
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| Um... |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|01:12 am] |
I had something to say, but I've pretty much forgotten what. Meh.
Mom and I will be flying to Dallas this weekend. Mom intends to help my aunt get her family ready for their move to the Philippines. After dropping them off at the airport, mom and I are each going to take one of their cars back to Houston, one of which will be bought by my 'rents and the other to be stuck at grandma's house.
I'm sure there's something else that's happened or will be happening that's exciting, but I can't think of it right now. I think all this vacation time was entirely way too overdue and I slipped into loaf mode too quickly. Case in point: I can't remember the conversion between ounces and grams. I keep thinking of volume instead of mass and that's definitely something I'll have to review before the Formative Exam. Yay. |
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| Craaaaaaaaaap... |
[Jul. 10th, 2008|11:15 pm] |
I'm so in fangirl mode. I still don't like High School Musical, but I do like Zac Efron and have been, well, keeping a lookout for news. This really, really, bugs me. I don't wanna be a fangirl. The last time this happened was, oh, from age 11 to I guess 16 or 17 when the Backstreet Boys were really popular. (I still like them, btw. The only people I'll actually go to the store and buy a cd for instead of getting it cheaper online...) But man, did I devote a lot of time and money into being a Backstreet Freak. I just have to wait this thing out, I guess.
After my family came back from Puerto Vallarta, the day of my summer final and last day of school, they pretty much took the rest of the week off and hung around the house, which drove me bonkers. See, I like to sing and one of the few pluses about moving to this house is that there are some nice acoustics with all the big open spaces. So, when no one is home I start belting out tunes.
I've been favoring the songs from "Hairspray" lately, but I usually sing whatever I think'll sound good a capella, or just my old music. My mom's in the process of getting a baby grand piano and I'll be really happy when it gets here. I can't play, but at least I can plink out melodies. I would like to try some writing, but it's kind of a daunting task, considering I've totally forgotten everything I learned in Music Theory in highschool. (That was 5 years ago!)
Anyway, I did pass my summer class. *does happy dance* But this week I've been (trying) getting errands done. My car's transmission went kaput about a month ago, so I've been driving my dad's (who's been driving the minivan, since he works close to home) and I had to take it for an oil change, alignment, tire rotation, and inspection. Since I don't know this area all that great, I got myself lost on Monday (that is, after waiting in line a the post office, which I again have to visit tomorrow), and did some laundry. On Tuesday, the JiffyLube I went to wasn't setup yet for inspection and then the Firestone had a super long wait time, so I decided to skip that and go find another place, which ended up with me lost again. On Wednesday I went to another Firestone and there's no wait! So yay! But then they tell me there's no point in doing a rotation because I need to replace the rear tires. Yay. And Firestone doesn't do inspections, so I still have to find a place to do that. So, I've got to go to the post office, buy tires, get the state inspection sticker, oh, and some groceries if I can fit them in.
That's not all of it. My PharmTech Certification expires this month, so I've gotta renew. Being a current student covers a lot of stuff, but I still have to take online courses in subjects I'm not currently taking. (Like Pharmacy law, or something). I'm 2 years overdue for an eye exam, my mom wants me to pick up some dishes she bought off craigslist in another part of town and I'm due for a dental cleaning. And I'm going with my mom to Dallas on the 27th to help my aunt pack for her family's move to the Philippines, and then drive their cars back to Houston.
Huh... for some reason I thought the last half of my summer was going to be kinda a nice breather before the hell that is known as P2 began. |
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| Just Posting to Say... |
[Jun. 30th, 2008|01:09 am] |
I hate enzyme kinetics. Right now, very specifically, Lineweaver-Burk plots. Hate them. Hatethemhatethemhatethem. No freaking way do I wanna be a pharmacokineticist.
*Edit*
Still don't wanna be a pharmcokineticist, but Lineweaver-Burk plots are now less evil. |
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| Whoaaaaaa...... |
[Jun. 12th, 2008|11:18 pm] |
It's been over a year since I last posted. Why? I'm lazy, I guess. I don't even have a Facebook! (Which I am constantly nagged about.)
So, I'm 22 now. Not ancient, but the weariness is definitely getting to me. I have successfully completed my first year of pharmacy school... mostly. I made a D in Biochem in the fall, but am now taking a summer course. Other than that, I passed. At the end of summer there's an informative exam that covers the entire school year's material and I'm all, "When was this decision made?!" Ugh.
My family is going to Puerto Vallarta at the end of June, but since I'm in exams around that time i won't be going. Phooey. It kinda sucks because it's not just my immediate family, but some of my aunts and their families will be there, too. There's this one aunt who will be moving her whole family to the Philippines soon and then it'll be quite a while before I see them again. I'm rather fond of my little cousins...
My parents did actually buy a house, on the other side of town. It's not a bad house, my parents love it, but it's inconvenient for me. Yeah, yeah, why am I still living with my parents... Two words: graduate school. Most people in pharmacy school already have degrees and jobs or a spouse with expendable income. I have a little bit of money in the bank and my parents. I could get a job, but then there'd be no way I could handle that and school. In any case, my scholarship only applied to fours years of schooling and since those are up, the bills are coming in and graduate school is a whole heckuva lot more expensive than undergrad.
My younger brother and his girlfriend are staying at the old house. I really got shafted in the whole deal. My commute time has almost tripled and not because of the distance, but the traffic. There are other issues concerning the house itself, but I'm not going to get into that.
*smacks lips* Okay, well. The real reason I'm updating is... I've got a confession.
IthinkZacEfronishot.
Did you get that? Please don't make me say it again. Sure, I've found other actors hot. Tom Welling, for one. (MMMMmmmmm. Yummy.) But *cough* liking him I find more than just a little weird/embarrassing. Why? I think it's because I usually fantasize about the hot actor's character and not the hot actor himself. In this case it's a little blurry and it just weirds me out.
I watched HSM 2, sorta. Stomached parts of it, I guess. There was no denying his hotness and I kinda puddle a bit when I see that "Bet On It" bit, but I could deal. So he's cute and not an awful singer. Then I saw Hairspray last week on HBO. (Yeah, where have I been?) Not that there's was a whole lot of him or a bunch of schmoopy scenes between his character (Link) and the title character (Tracy), but hell, there was enough for me to go all melty and then I look up some interviews and stuff and, well. Blurry lines, babe. Seriously blurry lines.
So now, I'm in total agony. Why am I being so melodramatic? I'm lonely dammit! And frustrated and just... UGH!!! |
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